Friday, 14 March 2014

Why is friendship so hard?

Why is friendship so hard?
One day you feel on top of the world; the next time you feel unloved.
I would love to say it gets better, but surely, it gets WAY worse before it gets better. Now before you click off this post, hear me out. I am not saying that friendship is not worth it because I am a firm believer of friends being like family. Any one who knows me, knows I am always talking about friendship.
First back to the basics; Friendship is defined as  a relationship between two people who hold mutual affection for each other. - Thanks Wiki.
I don’t necessary agree with the two peoples thing. I believe friendship can be shared between any number of people. Although it is much easier between 2 people. Then again, who wants an easy life(?)
I find friendship hard because I am a very hard person to be compatible with. I am complicated. I think that is a nice way of putting it. Let’s just say, I am probably someones nightmare. However, I am not ready to change myself to be accepted by a bunch of people I may not even know in a few years. I think about the long run; the future. If I believe in myself so much and I take the necessary steps to eliminate unnecessary people who have no firm role in my life. To be brutally honest, I think everyone does this process; they just don’t like to make it obvious. I am an upfront kind of person. The way I would like friendship to be involves someone who I can be semi-dependent on; someone who I can trust. Someone who has the same interests as me, I mean seriously, we got to have something to talk about. I want someone who is transparent so I can tell whenever something is up. I want someone who can see me as transparent. Someone with a weird sense of humour like me. Someone who knows what I’m saying even before I finish it; someone who knows me well enough to finish my sentences. Basically, I want a friend.
See – even as I type this, I realise how ridiculous and unrealistic this ‘person’ sounds. Is it so ridiculous to want a real friend? Am I dumb for wanting someone who is constant? Is true friendship as hard to find as true love? Do I settle for second, third and fourth best while waiting for this dream friend?
It took me a long time to admit it but, I cannot find all the things on my check list, in one person. Maybe I could, but am I willing to wait? There has to be another way.
Then I got thinking, maybe you don’t have to have all those things in one person, maybe its just not realistic. So I started having bunches of friends. We were all ‘besties’ but we all had different things we loved about each other. Of course this didn’t work (obviously it didn’t or I wouldn’t be writing this and I would be living happily ever after in the beautiful land of FriendshipTopia), but it was fun while it lasted. In the group, there is always that one person everyone like just a tiny bit more than everyone else. She wasd the one that no one messes with or you’re out. Lets just say, I managed to find out who that person is, and potentially mess with them. Oops..
So the moral of the story is that, everyone sucks. No, I’m kidding. The moral of the story is; don’t try so hard to fit in, when you were born to stand out.
Still working this one through but all I can say is, be yourself, live life and move on from the people that bring you pain. Whenever someone breaks your trust, have a good cry, but afterwards move on with your life. Don’t carry on like your life depended on them. Learn to forgive and forget. Learn to move on. Learn to live in the mindset of ‘Hey, maybe she/he wasn’t for me, right now. Someone better will come along.’ and believe it.
Now I know that sounds cheesy but trust me, it does wonders to a distressed mind. When people cause you pain; learn from it, but do not hold onto it. Go through life with your eyes a bit more open.
I always try and be a good friend (underline try). I could be the best friend a girl or guy could ever have…
But I’m trying this thing where I try and act to people how I want them to act to me. So far so good; then again, this is the beginning.
Before I go, just remember, everyone in your life is there for a reason. You might not know what reason yet but they are. God isn’t random; He didn’t go, ‘Eenie meenie miney mo, I’ll just plonk you there.’ No. He sure knows what He was doing when He placed that person there. Everyday we learn; that’s what we do.
Every mistake is one step closer to the correct answer.

Peace&Love.. and Friendship
Paula ox

Sunday, 2 September 2012


By the title you probably knew its about school.
So most people around the world are going back to school soon or have already gone back. I wanted to write a post to encourage you guys as well as myself about going back to school.
SCHOOL. Most of the time, I sit there wanting to be at home. But we all know that education is extremely important and we shouldn’t take it for granted. School can be very boring and depressing sometimes. I hate that we have to wake up earlier. But after all the years of hard work, you are full of the knowledge that you will need in life.
We are all going a year up, which means, more knowledge as well as homework. Just remember to work hard and focus. If you don’t understand, don’t be embarrassed to ask for help. School work can be extremely hard and obviously we can’t know everything.
AND don’t forget to have fun. I know, personally, seeing and being with friends is the best part of school. So juggle fun with hard work and life should be fine.
Last bit of advice, always make sure you look GOOD.
If you live in America, you probably don’t wear a uniform so just wear clothes you are comfortable in. I suggest different reds, red is really in right now; I’ll get back to you in a minute. If you live in most other places, like in the UK , you may wear a uniform. My advice on how to look GLAMOROUS in school uniform is to push the boundries.
Obviously, different schools have different rules about uniform but if your school isn’t too strict, try fitted blazers and long cardigans. Fitted blazers are the cutest things ever and get a few in school colours and you an look stylish whilst at school. If you wear a tie, wear it fat and loose. I also love tight school trousers (but I hate when they are so tight that they look like leggings. That’s too much.) but I hate tight school skirts. A new school uniform look I’m rocking this year is pencil skirts. So the skirt is from the waist and rests on the knee. Any shorter or longer, its wrong. (look below)

If your school is rather strict about uniform, like mine, I advise more subtle things. I’ll use myself and my school as an example. My school has a no nail polish policy so I wear natural tones and clear nail polish and also fake nails which only have a natural looking manicure and length. There is a no make policy so I wear no foundation but put quite a lot of black eye liner under my eye, black liquid eyeliner on top of my eye lid and a lot of black mascara. This makes your eyes pop and can still make you look lovely without being too obvious. People usually say wear badges and pins, I’ll advise against that; they just bring unnecessary attention. Although, I do agree, an eye for detail will make you stand out in your school uniform. Get a cute bag. Get matching accessories, equipment and stationary; always cute.

Ok, back to my friends across the pond (as they say) in the USA. Most of you guys don’t wear uniforms so you are have WAY more freedom on how to look cute. As I briefly mentioned before, RED is really in this year, especially as it leads toward Christmas. USA is a huge continent with weather and climate varying depending on which country or state you are in. So, I advise you to wear outfits that are appropriate to the weather. A trend which is making a come back is, High waisted jeans and shorts. If you want to, you can incorporate the red theme with the high waisted theme. Stripes are awesome. Get a pair of striped leggings, skinny jeans or top; guaranteed to always look amazing. Another way to kick up an average outfit is patterned tights. If you are wearing a plain skirt or pair of shorts, patterened tights under it look gorguse. As for shoes, short boots look brilliant with shorts. Flats, Dolly shoes and sandals look great with coloured or patterned leggings or tights.

At the end of the day, what ever you wear, make sure you feel comfortable and confident. Like I always say, ‘Confidence is the best outfit on you.’
*All the pictures used in this blog are NOT mine, nor do i take any credit for them*
Peace&Love.. AND FASHION
Paula ox’

OOTD 02.09.2012

Hey guys,
So, it has been a long time since I did a fashion and make up inspired blog so I have a Outfit Of The Day (OOTD) which I recorded the other day.
Hope you like it.
Sorry it had to be broken down into two videos.
If you like these videos and would like more, comment below or contact me.
Paula ox’


So, I making a new video where I answer your questions. SOOOOOO, if there is anything you want to know about me or you want me to answer in general, tweet me at: or comment below.
I have a really weird mind so my answer to the most normal of questions would be so twisted. lol ;)
You can leave your name but it is not compulsory. Please nothing inappropriate or rude, but the weirder the better. I also like ‘Would you rather’s.
You have until the 4th of Spetember. I might shorten or extend that time so get your questions in quick.
Click on my contact page for other ways to get in touch with me.
I’m looking forward to it, and TRUST ME, you will enjoy it.

Paula ox’

Tuesday, 28 August 2012


Hey again,

Just want to write a quick post about joy and happiness.

There are those moments that you never want to end. Remember those moments. When you feel down or sad, remember those moments that filled you up with joy. Those memories will fuel you to carry on. Life is going to get hard but then you reminisce on better times, it is proving to yourself, that it is all worth it.

Smile today.

Smile at someone today.

Hug someone (preferable someone you know and NOT a random stranger in the street)

The best thing about joy is that you can share it easily and get it easily

'Count your blessings, name them one by one.'


Peace&Love and JOY!

Paula ox'

Meet Lauren North

Hey everyone,

So today I decided to write a long overdue post about one of my favorite people ever, Lauren North. So guys, meet Lauren..

Lauren is a American 17-year old girl. Her brother is an actor; Austin North. Despite his fame, Austin is extremely down to earth and stays true to his faith. He is a true role model to guys.

Lauren is a singer. She uploads covers onto YouTube. Lauren has the most amazing voice ever! Many people compare her to Adele, as she has the same power and tone in her voice, similar to Adele. But I think Lauren sounds like herself. She isn't trying to be anyone else. What I love the most about Lauren's voice is that she just sings from her heart. In her covers she is either playing the keyboard or guitar (extremely talented much!) and she just sings. She closes her eyes and sings like no one is there, like no one is watching. I find this amazing because whilst watching, you can't help but worship and be peaceful and happy along with her. She is amazing, and she inspires me to work harder at my singing.

I came across Lauren North on twitter. I was watching Austin's episode of Disney XD's Kickin' It. Then later that day, I found Austin on twitter. Austin is a great actor. His character in Kickin' It was a rude jerk and for some insane reason I was convinced Austin would be the same, (Sorry Austin) but I was pleasantly surprised. His bio on twitter was so sweet and humble, which are awesome qualities to have. I tweeted him and he replied.  I read through his tweets and found out her had an older sister. Being the curious teenager girl I am, I clicked on her twitter page. I read through all her tweets, which I instantly loved as they were full of hope, peace, love and joy. I then noticed she had a link to her YouTube page. I watched all her videos and was like, "WOW this girl can sing!".  I absolutely loved the simplicity of her covers and how pure they were. I love music and so does my dad, so as soon as I watched all of Lauren's videos, I showed my dad. My dad is a Pastor so as soon as he heard Lauren singing, he was like, "This girl is blessed. Do you think you can talk to her and ask her to perform in our church?" Lol. As much as I really wanted this, I knew Lauren lives in America, she can't come all the way to England; as much as I would love to meet her and Austin.

So from that day, whenever I would feel down or sad, I would watch all of Lauren's covers on a continuous loop. It became a daily thing for me; listening to Lauren's voice. I would always comment, urging Lauren to create new covers. I was doing some Maths revision and I just felt depressed and bored. Then I thought, hey, lets do this with some Lauren playing in the background. And with no exaggeration, I did Maths (My least favourite subject) for 3 hours straight. Thats the power of Lauren North!

Lauren, I don't know if you will read this but I want you to know, you inspire me. You may not be "famous" but in your own corner of the world, you're impacting people, especially this one girl. You are something special. You have a gift. Not many artists can connect with people just by sitting behind a keyboard and singing. You don't need a gimmick because being Lauren North is defiantly enough. God gave you such an amazing talent. While you worship in your videos, I can't help but worship along with you. Every time I tweet you, you reply or retweet me, and I don't think you realise how much that means to me. Some times I think, 'Paula, just leave the girl alone.' but you never complain and you never ignore me. Lauren, you are my role model.

Here are a few of Lauren North's covers; check them out. 

Lauren's Links

Follow Lauren on twitter:
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Subscribe to Lauren's YouTube page:

*I want to thank Karen North for having 2 absolutely positively talented kids.*

Here are a bunch of cool pics of Lauren featuring Austin and the last one has Karen, Momma North. These are NOT mine, I 'borrowed' them all from Lauren's twitter page.

ilysm Lauren<3

Peace&Love.. always
Paula ox'